In a New York Minute

In the blink of an eye my happiest moments turn into such sad feelings. Every laugh that I have turns quickly into tears. Even a simple smile makes it way upside down and turns into a frown. You see, I am living day to day, moment by moment, trying to take in all the day has to offer. But everytime I feel joy then I become sad. I am not able to sustain the good feelings. When I think I am loving life then I think of losing my life - very sad indeed.
I was playing with my beautiful son Mario this weekend. We were laughing, being silly, acting like we were the only two in the world just loving each others company. It was a moment that made life worth fighting for. But then he said "This is another memory that I will have when you pass away." Silence, sadness in our hearts. But in that blink of an eye we were back to our silliness.
So now I realize it can work both ways. I can turn off my sadness because there is more happiness to enjoy. I wish that is was as flowing as the "happiness to sadness" feelings. "Sadness to happiness" requires effort. Hapiness to sadness just happens. My son Mario is so brave when he faces the sadness he feels but goes on to live his life carrying his great burden. He has taught me a lot and just keeps teaching me about how to stop my sad thoughts and just move on. So it's happiness to sadness and back to happiness again. It's a cycle. Thank you Mario for showing me the way back to my life - to live for the moment.
Oh how life changes in the blink of an eye. How quickly parents who teach their children become parents who are taught by their children. In a New York Minute everything could change. How those lyrics by the Eagles ring so true.
One more thing - I love you Mario (And that is one thing that will never change even after I pass away.)