The Amusement Park from Hell

It's back at the amusement park again. I went to Hershey Park last year and rode "Big Bear" with Mario and Michael. We just couldn't stop laughing. That was a fun amusement park. Made some great memories. I'm not in that kind of park anymore.
I'm in the scariest amusement park ever. It only has those rides that you can get on but never get off. It has the kind of rides that make you think you can conquer your fears only to find out your deepest fears only touch the physical depths of these rides.
It has a perpetual ferris wheel. I step on to it, secure myself, all the while knowing I'm not going to like the sensation but eventually it will stop. It just keeps on going and going, carts swinging, speed steady but never to stop. In my mind I know it could only end in disaster.
Then there is that zero gravity ride. Again, I step on and secure myself. I suspect a wild and scarey ride but then it will be over. So way, way, up I climb. I've got a view of the world. For a moment I feel so full of life with every emotion on edge. Then comes the drop. I start yelling profanities but all the while having trust that this out of control ride will stop. But it doesn't and the loss of air in my lungs, the rattling of my body, the screams from the bases of my lungs will only end in disaster.
Hey, now I see something that I am much more comfortable with. It's tha loop coaster. I've always loved that ride - Great Bear at Hershey Park was the last one I went on. As I like to refer to it, "The Great Memory." I step on again secure myself and continue to smile. As I always describe these loop coasters - "they are over so fast there is no time to be scared." Unfortunately this coaster did not live up to this expectation. The loops started and I laughed. They kept on going...three, four...five loops. Twenty, thirty, forty loops. I'm sick, I'm scared and I know it will only end in disasater.
OK. One more ride. It is named Cancer - "the slow ride to doom." This was one ride that I wanted to avoid. There were crowds around it but no one was willingly stepping on. People were being just swept in even though they did not want to go. I think the statistics on the ride say one out of five people will go on this ride whether they want to or not. Take care of yourself, eat healthy, exercise, don't drink, don't smoke. All these things work in your favor - if you do these things the less likely you will get swept into the ride. I obeyed but got swept into the ride anyway. And I'm still riding. Sometimes it's slow and steady, sometimes it is abrupt in its movement. There are times when it's going smooth but jolts me. I think I have control but I realize I am only fooled. I see some people able to jump of and save their lives. I am happy for them but sad for myself. The only thing that I am sure of, like all the other rides, this too will end in disaster.