Pumped to Fight

I'm aiming to stay positive on this post. Sometimes it is like shooting at a target with a blindfold. I'm aiming but not getting close to the bull's eye. Other times I have the arrow in hand and stick it right in the center and through the other side. My aim is good tonight. I'm feeling strong and feeling alive. Even feeling invincible. Bring on that chemo, come on try to destroy me but I'm not going down. Cancer, don't mess with me because you'll see who you are messing with!
Working out with a trainer has lead me to this strength. I can't believe how a consistent work out schedule, complete with cardio, has been such a boost to my well being. Being away from chemo for 3 months adds to my feeling of strength but I'm not giving all the credit to my chemo break. If I did that it would mean I have no control over the way I feel. When you give up control you are bound to lose the battle. There will be a time when I will have to give it up but I assure you it will be after I've given it my all.
These last few work out sessions have been lessons learned. I can keep getting stronger. When I go back to treatment I will be well prepared to fight. These last few treadmill runs have been different too. I used to feel I was running from the cancer. My thinking has changed and now I picture myself chasing the cancer away.
I am strong - true. I am invincible - false. I am in control of how I feel and how I fight - It depends on the day. I hope to have more days like this!