Psych 101

My busy behaviors are bordering on manic to help me stay away from feelings of depression. I have become delusional because being off chemo I can make myself believe that I don't have cancer. There are hallucinating dreams seeing my body being eaten by cancer. I possess this uncanny ability to run around from thing to thing, thought to thought, person to person like I have ADHD, all because I'm afraid to stop and think. I act like a victim of PTSD because the thought, smell, and sight of Dana-Farber hangs in my senses and sometimes I get thrown right back into the treatment area with a blanket over my head. I'm a walking Psych 101 text book. And I have cancer to thank for it.